now listening : when i think about the Lord
i lost count on how many days i've not been blogging..i wish my mum comes back now..so that she can handle things here and i can do my own things..like the electric, water, astro, telephone bills..i'm seriously getting crazy..and my GRANDMA..i cant stand her anymore..she cant stop talking..or nagging u call it..when i turn on the conputer..she's be like..u better study now or else u'll bla bla bla..she can bla for hours..so, i practice the piano..just when i'm about to play, she's be like..hey, dont hit so hard..dont play so short(staccato)..make it longer so that it'll sound nicer..this and that..hey, grandma..i'm just playing whatever is written..or else she's be asking me..what is it said in the telly?? *she doesnt understand eng so i will have to translate*
sometimes i just wish she can stop talking for just one day or maybe one hour will do..know why i like to drive alone??? yeah..coz i need peace man!!! sometimes i'll just drive around alone...it feels so nice..very nice indeed...i appreciate the time i spent on my own..so everytime i go watch movies nowadays, i go out alone..it feels so nice to be alone..i just cant stand it when someone is there 24hrs to tell me what i shud be doing and stuffz like that..dont get me wrong..i never neglect her..the reason i'm shifted to this place is bcoz of her..she chosed this place coz it's near her friend's house..and i always take her to watch movies..just that she's always sleeping in the cinema and know nothing about the movie when we leave..so, i'll drop her at her friend's house before i go watch movie..
i talked to uncle rock about this yesterday..he asked me to pray..there must be a reason why i'm situated in such situation..moeover this kind of things can kononnya train me to be more responsible and to be more mature..he has his points..so, now i'm finding for solutions of how to deal with my grandma :p i started off this morning..things are working out right till now...anyway, just pray about it..
oh btw, my piano exam is on the 1st of Nov..omg...oh no..i dont think i'm prepared..i havent even finish my 5th piece..what now?? how now?? oh my..not that my other four pieces are well prepared..i thought it will be end of nov...oh no no no..i think it's really time to pray :p haha..ok..see ya..have to practise now..see ya..bye...
|11:15 PM|
now listening : Your glory-planet shakers
i think the title probably tells everything..yeah, stucked at home..using my bro's pc without his permission..or so to say without him knowing :p anyway, will get mine fixed later..today is mom's birthday...HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY..wish she's here so that we can celebrate...i think she's having a great time in australia too..celebrating with her friends...
okie..i think i have to say this...for the first time i'm making this announced officially..i quit college again..inbelievable?? believe it!! watch too much ripley's :p the reason i quit is becoz i was stucked in the wrong college..i have no passion towards contemporary music..in fact what i do at home most of the time is turn into channel V or MTV and start condeming every single thing shown..so, do u think i shud be in ICOM?? no i guess...i told dad before i stopped..he was being very supportive..he said if i want to continue with science just go ahead..i thought he would at least scold me or raise his voice..but no..he was like..ok then if u dont want to continue..cool dad isnt he?? i din tell my mum until last few days..i thought i shud at least let her know..she was cool too..and very supportive at the same time..no scolding..no nothing..just do it..great parents i have..but i'm not a very good daughter..i wasted lots of money..i feel bad...
i realise i have no passion towards anything...pastor paul was sayin, if u have the passion..u'll do it no matter what..i believe that!! but i dont know what i really want..so, i'm stucked..and my parents are being too supportive..they never puch or force me in anything..or at least if they force me..i might come out with something..dont get me wrong..i'm not blaming my parents..they'r incredible..just that i'm being stupid..since they'r not forcing me..i think i have to...
oh yes..watched CSI-NY last night..great episode..don flack(eddie cahill) was badly injured :'( okie, he's one of my fav. in the show..he looks good..haha..according to my net friends..we wont know what happens to him next until season 3..hope that's not too long to wait..coz i seriously cant wait..ok..bye for now..
|2:01 PM|
now listening : evermore-planet shakers
some pics taken durin VYS camp..from 21st August-23rd 2006
this is before the camp..
me, emily and mun yee..
me and brother..
me, kayee and mun yee...
mun yee and i..
i'm back peeps..it's been such a long time since i last blogged...what to do?? no telephone line..now i'm staying at sri segambut..from a big house to a tiny one..haha..brother keeps grumbling this and that..bising only..i'm ok with here..perfectly fine with me..everything is more convenient to me..
i'm sure everyone knows i went to a VYS church camp from 21st to 23rd August...that was actually my first camp..was excited about it..and moreover it was like 3 days with planet shakers...had great time there...i took some pics with arthur(guitarist)..john and his wife(keyboardist) and pastor paul..but i dun look good in those pics so never want to publish them :p
pastor paul's messages were great..espcially on the passion thingy..i think i need to really pray about that..i dun seem to have passion in anything..
i think i better stop now...i'm really very sleepy..will continue tomolo..see ya..adios y buenos noches...or is it buenas?? whatever la..
|12:42 AM|
now listening : who am i-christian song..
busy busy and busy..these few days are very busy...first and foremost, busy with examination, secondly, with my performance piece(still improvising)...then with the house..oh yes, for u guys info i'm shifting to kl these few days...then busy with bank stuffz...seriously alot of things...and i did badly in my the test..both of them..omg..yesterday traditional harmony was like not enough time..i bantai the whole was towards the end..so nervous i ever forgot what plagal was..praise God i did 4-1 but i din get to check..imagine last time i got distinction and now?? shit!!! then today's comtemporary harmony..well, enough time but then dunno how to do..shit la!! i'm starting to like sir freddie..he's a good teacher..although he likes to call ppl hantu and cats...dunno why is that so...he concerns about his students and stuffz like that..and he really cares if we can do the questions..but sorry la, i dun think i did well...
and i'm sick these few days..coughing like shit man..i wonder if i disturb the whole class man..everytime exam surely sick one..like what the?? and not to forget, pimples are like fighting their ways out man...my face is like shit now...grandma was complaining the other day, saying my face is pale and this and that..asked me not to eat mcD's or better start eating this and that..like i care?? i dun give a damn of what i eat...and usually only a meal per day..so, whatever edible i just eat...tomorrow is like english test..i'm so lost now..dunno what exactly will come out..sigh!!! AND tomorrow got to interview a conductor..erm..datuk johari he is...i hope i got his name right..i'm really bad in memorizing names..sorry peeps....so, must dress up decently tomorrow :p and oh well, rockshcool exam confirmed this year..end of this year..well, hope i can do it by then..havent been practising..been really busy with college stuffz and other things..frankly i'm aiming for a distinction again..so does un. rock..so yeah, work hard lor..
just now when i reached home, grandma told me no water supply..so, i called SYABAS i guess..they told me they cut the service coz i din pay..what the f*ck?? i paid last week and now u come telling me i din pay??? what is this?? they wanted me to fax the receipt so i quickly went to buletin to fax..then received a call from them telling me they'll come in between 5 to 10pm..i was already quite pissed coz i just came home after a 3 hours piano class and a terrible test in the afternoon..moreover no water supply..then not too long later they called again telling me they can only come tomolo morning which means tonight no water...what the?? u know what i told them?? i cant beliv what i've said..hereit goes..."if i dont see u coming tonight, i'll sue u...tomorrow morning u'll receive a letter from my lawyer"..walaueh..i couldnt beliv that man..i said that..well, what too much telly must be :p k, i was really pissed and i meant every single thing i said..so, they got a shocked..immediately they came and it's fixed now..haha..this kind of ppl, never check before they cut the service..waste my energy, money and also breath to talk to them...
|8:52 PM|
now listening : nothing..
just finished watching wwe...fun man..it's been such a long time since i watched..since dave left i never really watch..was watching supernatural before i watched wwe, and yes, jensen is cute, hot or whatsoever as usual :p haha..anyway, dave batista is back..finally the animal is back..and that match between him and mark henry was "BRILLIANT" man..i was sooo excited man..first of all coz dave is back..secondly i've never seen mark henry beaten until he was kind of out of shpe(some exaggeration) :p dave was very vigorous..he used the steel stairs and chair to hit mark..wahlueh..it was cool..it's time for vengeance...mark deserved that..haha..anyway, there'r just acting there la..i know that..dun think i'm stupid..just that i like this very particular storyline coz it involves dave :p oh btw, dave has got a new tattoo on his left shoulder..right on top of the word angel(written in kanji) specially tattoed for his wife..i think the tatt is done to cover the scar on his arm after the surgery..
mum called last night..she was telling me how God has led her and helped her in times of difficulties...it's great to know that she acknowledges the presence of God and know that He's always there to help her..my mum is never a strong Christian..she does go to church when she was still in malaysia 8 months ago but never really into religion..she never reads the bible..u know what she told me last night?? she's started reading the bible...OMG..it's really great...and she told me soo many things that she's experienced in australia...i was really glad as she narrated everything to me via the phone..i praise God that He actually has answered my prayer..i always pray that God will change my mum's perspective towards christianity..she used to blame God for not blessing her and stuffz like that..and yesterday she told me how stupid she was for saying that...she has certainly grown in Christ..praise the Lord...
back to me..i realized that i spend more time on the road than any other places...gosh..it's really tiring..as grandma not feeling well for the past few weeks..and we'r like shifting now..so, lots of things to do..i travel from rawang to kl..then back to rawang..then to kl again then back to rawang for piano class and then back to kl and then back to rawang..u know how many rounds were there?? well, i lost count..but that was exactly what happened on tuesday..no exaggeration on this..gosh..and gas station is one of the most frequent visited place of all places...goodness..seriously, since mum left for aussie i have to do all the things..so, sometimes i get really frustrated especially when grandma starts to nag and nag and nag..once i reach home everyday she'll be like..well, these are the things she usually says..
1. have u paid this and that?
2. did u have ur breakfast this morning?
3. what did u eat?", where is the account book?
4. did u check the acc book everytime u withdraw money?
5. did u call ur dad?
6. did ur mum call u?
7. did u call ur bro?
8. u must call him, dun wait for him to call u!
9. where is the astro bill?(usually the previous month she asks for, damn)
10. have u asked money from ur date?? today is already the bla bla bla bla...
11. do u have piano class today??
gosh..isnt that alot?? and she repeats that everyday single day...i cant even have a peace of mind eventho i get home..so, sometimes i just dun feel like getting home...so, once i get home i'll get into my bro's room to go online or my room to practice the piano..if she sees me online she's be like..."dont go online so often, practise ur piano otherwise u'l.....bla bla bla and bla"....sigh...cant she just shut up for a moment..everytime she sees me she'll starts talking rubbish..sometimes i just shun away from her..cannot tahan..and when we have dinner or when we watch telly, she'll start talking again..and she'll repeat everything i mentioned above..OMG!!!
i have a performance to do on the 7th week..now is already the 4th..and today i realised that it's better for me to get a band to play with me..so, yes..i'm stucked again..i dun think anyone wanna help me especialyl next week is like the exam week..i really need a drummer, a guitarist and a bassist..and maybe a keyboardist if i cant manage it since i'm on the piano..i wonder if i can find any...well..i'm not going to worry about it..i'll cast all my anxieties to God for He will care for me..i know that..so yea, just leave everything to God and i'll do my part which is to ask around :p k la..better sleep now..bye..and nite nite...
|12:06 AM|
now listening : maksim's amazonic
hola..my brain is kind of empty now..nvm..i'll do some brain storming :p haha..anyway, just some thoughts that i thought it's better for me to write down or so to say blurt out rather than keeping inside..now what, i dunno what i wanted to say :p haha...nvm, let's start with what happened today..today went for my first english class under Sir Andy..was late..sigh..i never like to be late ok..the traffic was very down this morning..it jammed at jalan duta toll..gosh..i left home at 7.45am but still couldnt make it on time...what the f*ck??!! they were doing topic sentences..exactly what i did in taylor's :p haha..but i forgotten everything :p so yeah, had to start all over again..i prefer sir andy's class..coz we have more individual work then group work..i dun really like to work in a group...
then after english class wendy and i went to klcc for baskin robbin's..guess what??!! there's no baskin robbin's in klcc :( stupid la...went all the way there and found out there wasnt any..so, we had our breakfast at dome..then we went back to coll...after our traditional harmony we went lepak at mcD's..oh no, not traditional harmony, it was after my PI..anyway, we were looking at cars that passed by..haha..funny...oh yea, we'r both obsessed with cars..haha...and our taste on cars are about the same :p i finally found my match man :p oh btw, is she a wrestling fan?? we never talk about this..who knows if she's another batista fan :p
okie..now it's commercial time :p doing some advertisement for my church...on the 18th August(a friday), planet shakers will be in RLC having a concert..so, whoever read this is invited..just drop me a message or anything if u'r interested so that we can rock the world together for Jesus :) remember...on the 18th of Aug. 2006...U'R INVITED..transportation is provided(not by me but by church)...if u'r from ICOM then i think i can fetch u there if u want..
omg, tomolo freddie's class again..hmmm....dun get me wrong..nothing is wrong with him..just that i'm scared of him..i dunno why..i just do...sometimes i cant even breathe when i see him..that's how bad it is..mind me..i'm not exaggerating ok..it's true..i'm the kind of person who expects everything to go smoothly throughout my whole life and at the same time i know that it's not going to be that way..how weird huh?? so, whenever i face problems i get panic easily..in fact, very super easily..haha..i just dunno why..but praise God forevermore, He is always with me..His words comfort me in every circumstances espacially the love letter from my heavenly father..those verses are really great ones..i dunno how many times have i printed it..haha..i keep miss placing it..haha..i better stop now..haha..i'm like bull shitting here :p adios y buenas noches..hasta entonces...
|10:07 PM|
now listening : maksim's
hey ppl...sunday again..tomolo have to go to coll again..gosh..oh yes, i'm transfered to the better english class already..phew!!! i din really take the test seriously..my essay was like a piece of shit man..haha..still, praise God for his favour upon me :D many things happened..first and foremost, my condolence to emily's phone :p haha..i know exactly how she feels when her phone just got snatched from her hand..altho i've never experience than but still..i cant imagine my babe(my cell) being snatched from me..i think i'll go insane man..haha..anyway, everything happens for a reason..it may look not-so-good at the beginning..i'm sure God wants to bless u with a better mobile :p
on friday..i dunno how to put what happened in words...hey em, i guess both of us din have a good day on friday man...her phone was stolen on friday..and on friday i was very down..we both cried as a conclusion..but we only knew what happened to each other on sat during vys..anyway, i was at the recital hall in ICOM..i started to wonder whether did i chose the right thing to do as in to quit SAM and to study in ICOM..till the performance started i was actually quite happy that i din really make the wrong decision..first two performances were kinda good..until the forth performance..i was not interested in that kind of rock or heavy thing at all..sorry..i'm NOT against anything just that i dunno how to appreciate that kind of music...i started to feel that i'm really stucked in the wrong place again..my mind started talking to me..u'r not going to quit again, arent u?? no..i told myself no..I AM NOT QUITTING...not again...after the performances, we were told to gather at a side to do some ice-breaking thing....i was just very very confused by then..i'm not even sure what was i thinking at the moment..i just felt that i dun belong there coz my dream and their dreams(ppl around me) are totally different..at one point, i couldnt hold it anymore..tears started to gather in my eyes...i just rushed to the entrance and left the place..it was pouring out there..and yes, i was crying out there too..what a scene?? haha..running to my car..cried and cried..for no reason actually..just some kind of feelins that controlled me..then drove off...cried all the way until i reached jalan duta toll where i stopped crying coz i din want my bro to know that..i've prayed about it..and i know and realise that i have to study whether i like it or not..so, why not study it "happily"..so, just enjoy every single moment in icom then..stop complaining..i beliv God has a way for me...
i went to shop again..well not really..but i spent alot of money..RM 800+ in a week time not including my newly bought perfume..haha..not a lot to those rich ones out there but alot to me..so, i think i shud have a limit..have to stop buying things..anyway, what have i bought?? earlier ones were the sweater and jeans, i think i meantioned in the previous post..then an armani exchange baby T which i've been eyeing for quite sometime..and prise God that it has 20% off when i bought it :p then yesterday i think..i bought a christian dior blusher..hehe..that was sumthing i wanted since months ago..it's so cute but quite expensive for a blusher la..coz my estee lauder ones i got them for free when i buy their products..but the CD one looks very cute and very easy to use...it's serious cute la..
went to church yesterday..they've moved VYS to the 3rd floor..not sure why coz i din go last week..worship was good..the message especially is the best part..it was all about music..i love the message alot alot...pastor was shring about the effects of classical music and rock music..not exactly what's from the bible but then the facts that were preached by him were all "scientificly" proven by surveys that had been carried out all these years..according to surveys music can incrase our creativity that is IF u listen to the right type of music of course...and the type of music is CLASSICAL music :p haha...
|9:43 PM|
